Antsy

I’ve written about having your own space for being creative before. It’s so important to have an outlet that is comfortable for your creative mind. It really can make all the difference in the world.

The thing about creative space for me is that it always needs to be changing. I change it all up every few months or so. Moving my computer to different rooms, hanging different photos around, walking around my house or even switching from music to talk radio can help. It’s all about influences.

I’ve been attempting to write a blog and keep it consistent for years. Trying to find that voice in my words on the screen and a creative outlet for all the things that don’t make sense. However, I’m not consistent. I write every month or so on the blog and the days in between are filled with word documents saved on my desktop because I feel they don’t make enough sense to put up on the site. It’s time to change that. It may be partly that I’m embarrassed, nervous, anxious to put an entry that isn’t well formed onto my site or it may very well be that it is complete nonsense. I’m not going to find out if I don’t post more. I didn’t want to post every rambling thought on a site just because. It seemed a little overboard on the narcissistic front, but if I find the direction out of all the rambling, then I can live with it.

So tomorrow begins my early career into retail management. I have found a job in this depressing economic times and while it is not where I imaged myself starting out, I am well and truly excited for this opportunity. I see so many opportunities to grow and learn about being a leader and being held accountable. It will give me the chance to learn the skills to move over into the corporate side of the company and eventually (hopefully) into the design department. Starting from the bottom and all that.

How do you explain the emotion you feel when you truly “get it”? Whether it’s the meaning in a story or an observation a friend is making, when I “get it” I get so excited I do a happy little dance in my mind. The feeling of understanding connects us all.

“The most important thing in a piece of music is to seduce people to the point where they start searching.” - Brian Eno ( I read this and instantly had the shivers because this has happened to me on many occasions and it is a wondrous hole to fall into to).

I moved the computer again out into the dinning room. It sparked a tremendous flow of thought today and I really felt compelled to write even if there was no specific direction. Tomorrow is a new and exciting day! I wish you all the best.